Orion... you have got to find love before your insecurity and anxiety kill you! /_\ Wake up! You used to be calm and strong, and generous you should've known! You just emerged yourself into the deep sea of emotion for too long. Its time to swim, don't sink, because if you lose it, your dream of working for the animals will sink too! Don't be haunted by your nightmares and bad memories. Move on, you're never alone. Because the world is your friend.  You're never a loser, because your family loves you!(sounds old-fashioned though...) And be brave! to trust the world, trust your destiny and trust yourself! Why so gloomy? Probably simply lack of sleep, right stupid? ^^